As a survivor of narcissistic, psychopathic and sociopathic abuse, I learned A LOT by screwing up my own life to be able to pound these keys to share the following. Adding to that decade of wrong choices is two decades of working with clients going through divorces and planning their estates. Lets just say that I have a very directed point of view about what does and doesn't work in relationships.
I'm back to this area of life sharing because I have a few friends struggling to stay afloat in the rapids of significant other love. One is trying to leave a narcissist and sociopath whom they share a child with. Another is repeating low self worth behaviors with a new abuser. One has a lazy partner who doesn't know how to covet what he wants and projects his own insecurities upon her. And another is so desperate to be loved, honored and cherished that they've been blinded by what is versus what they want and actually deserve. I mean damn, was I just not writing in my last blog about my own journey in remembering and letting go of someone who wasn't there for my greater good? That's how this life is though. It brings to the forefront people I love seeking comfort, guidance and advice of things that mirror mine or another's evolution of self. I get to receive downloads and inspired thoughts for them, who are in effect being used as a tool to teach another person I love, sometimes even myself.
As you embark upon the last two months of this year, I really want you to connect with what's coming through right now for each of you below. To listen and receive what's pulling on you in your life that deserves your attention. That way, when we greet 2016, you will have set yourself up for your best year of sorting yet in Life Department Love. Sit down. Light some Nag. Walk on the shore. Absorb what I'm about to say. Then act damn it. ACT. You are far too precious in this world to not know these things and those with children, they are watching and learning what we do.
Ladies and gentlemen, if the person in your life doesn't bring you peace, understanding and grace, they're not there in your life to fix those things in them. They're there in your life to remind you of what you don't want. Of what you don't deserve. Of what you're working towards. Those of you who know me understand that although I'm not a religious person, that I do love God and take away from the Bible many of its Universal teachings. One that I've learned to apply in my own life is from 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. The one that says...
1. Is he/she patient?
We're not talking the typical Nita wants what she wants, when she wants it, today is for the living, where was I again when patience was given away as a virtue? We're talking about you and your evolution of self. Do the people in your life allow for your own personal growth? Do they stay the course? Do they know how to wait on God to do his work through you and in you?
2. Is he/she kind?
Hello! Stop sign! This is not about when someone wants something from you. Is the person kind? To animals. To others. To that pain in the ass who just cut them off in traffic when they've already had a crazy stressful day. How does this person handle stress and the day-to-day art of living? Are they mean or do they strive to lead with love and be kind?
3. Is he/she jealous?
We're not talking territorial here. We're talking flat out lack of self esteem and self worth envy. The not believing or knowing one's worth. The being driven by fear of loss to not trust with every fiber of your being that this person in your life is there for a reason, and even if that reason doesn't last, their lessons left upon your life will IF YOU ALLOW THEM TO.
4. Does he/she boast?
Boasting is ego rooted. It comes from a lack of connection to source. Of not understanding the laws of intention, attraction and action. Boasting comes from a lack of sense of self. Humble people know they have God given talents and can be amusing in their assertions, but when it comes down to it, they won't take credit for what flows through them to help another. They sow seeds of good deeds not for praise, but for what they're doing. Simply to be a light. To do good in the world for another.
5. Is he/she proud?
This is not about "I met my sales goals last month. Whoo hoo!" or "Hello my friend, do I not have the best ever magic hands?" or "Mom, I'm on the honor roll again (hint hint, where's my money)." This is about people who have a lack of self esteem and self worth who build themselves upon being prideful. They don't get that just being themselves IS ENOUGH. That being patient, kind and loving is enough. Again, boasting is rooted in a lack of self worth. It's a caution sign of sorts in dealing with other people and operates much like jealousy and pride. All of these things are rooted in fear and lack.
6. Does he/she easily anger?
While some moodiness is chemical in nature, most is attitude and a lack of regard for others. A lack of golden rule living in the heat of the moment kind of thing. Note the word EASILY above. Is he/she thick skinned? Can they navigate the world in such a way that little things aren't big things? Anger is a symptom of other issues. It's a trigger for change needed and a reflection of fear. Anger is often about control. Those who anger easily have much personal evolution to work on and remember, it's NOT YOUR ROLE to fix them. That's between them and God.
7. Does he/she keep a record of your wrongs?
Oh yes, the laundry list. You know, that list that comes out each and every time a new issue comes up that needs discussion and growth in. The record of every mistake you ever made or personality flaw you've ever had with the other person. Score keeping is rooted in control. It's a way for a person to feel at home in a victim role. It's how those with a lack of sense of worth and self navigate their broken world. The opposite is letting go of wrongs, of knowing we're all human and here to fail and make mistakes. We're not a definition of those mistakes, we're a definition of who we allow ourselves to become in light of them.
8. Does he/she delight in suffering?
Wallow in negative things? Hurt other people? All of which could be considered evil. My mom has a great saying, "Some people have a need to suffer." That's their path. Not mine. Not yours. Not your employees. They just don't know how to survive without creating chaos. Their entire identity is about the struggle or their victimhood.
9. Does he/she rejoice when truth is spoken?
When the Universal Knowledge of life flows? When one graciously with love corrects or points out an unsavory behavior? Or does the person fight you tooth and nail, dancing with denial, projecting their own issues upon you? None of us like to be corrected. None of us like to learn that we're hurting another person. Denial is a defensive mechanism of learning truth. Trust me, and look me in the eye when I say this, YOU WILL REPEAT YOUR MISTAKES UNTIL YOU LEARN THE LESSONS IN THEM. So will others. This is when we REALLY have to work on our egos to lead with love. To humbly accept another's opinion of where we're going ary and to ask God and our guides for guidance in showing us the truth behind them, including where we can improve as people.
10. Does he/she protect you?
When you're not on your A game, do they help to guide you? Does the person remind you of your hurts so that you don't repeat them? Do they help you pivot your thoughts to those that are empowering versus damaging to your being? Do they protect you? From the world, but mostly from yourself?
11. Does he/she have unwavering trust in you?
Life is too finite to live it with people who don't trust and believe in you. We have an obligation to be honest and unfiltered first. We must own who we are, flaws and all, before we can trust in another. We must see the beauty in imperfection within ourselves before we can trust it in another. Once we get this lesson, it's so much easier to sort the people in our lives who trust in us.
12. Does he/she always have a hopeful attitude?
Are they a positive in your life? Do they help you to pivot your thoughts away from what some term "evil" which is basically any negative thought that defeats all your glory? This is where trusting themselves comes in. If one can trust, it's much easier to be hopeful. Hope of better days is what gets us going in the darkness of life. Dark doesn't like light in biblical terms. Things can't grow in the darkness until they've adapted to do so for millions if not billions of years of evolution. We're homosapians, not miracle workers. We grow and thrive in the light. Hope is light.
13. Does he/she work to preserve you?
Again, are the people in your life looking out for your greater good? Do they actually do the work and say the words that preserve what's right and good about you? Your work ethic. Your being. Your example to the world. Are they for you or are they against you? Don't settle for anything less than someone who can see right through you and still believe in your highest good. Someone who treasures what you bring to the table of their life. Someone who inspires you to save yourself because again, we cannot fix each other. We just simply get to be part of their toolbox and blueprint going forward. Know the difference. God/The Universe help people to fix themselves. Not us. Yes, I'm being repetitive. That's how we learn. Remember that. I love you.
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